Dont know if you believe in that kind of stuff or not,but what do you got to loose? Let it flow in...its on its way now

Since I suffer from schizophrenia,much of what I say may have no basis in reality. But since I cant tell the difference between what is real and what is not,how would I know???

I find it easier to transport that euphoria in chemical form.. know what I mean?

I'll give this a try.. lets see what happens...

It's better than I'll tell you that

You know, the second day of no luck, arggg! Except for me it is the big 'O'

The WD's you get on the second day are the worst! You're sweating, and freezing at the same time; your legs feel like they are going to fall off; and the squirts are just appearing...oh what a feeling.

And then...out of the blue, a phone call---while you're in that state, in the mornings, of hoping you can just stay asleep for 5-6 more hours so you don't feel the pain---"i'll be there in 2 hours" he says, and my face lights up with a smile.

It seems that even though the O isn't here yet and you're still in the exact same WD's you were in, 2 minutes ago before you talked to your friend, you feel high! Yeah, without anything in your system--just knowing that they are going to appear, makes me feel all warm inside.

Well, those 2 hours were up 15 minutes ago---currently, i'm in that state when my stomach starts to give me that feeling...you know what feeling i'm talking about...when you know that now it is only a couple of minutes before you light up a cig and start dreaming....

Just think about that phone call, and you'll get through...regards...

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But then the best part--- (when you eat the Opium)---15 minutes later, your stomach starts to give you that feeling. You're not even high yet--but you're in that small span of time which is the best: the transition from pure hell to pure bliss--- oh what a feelin....regards...